Feelings.

My life has always been of the upmost Wonderful. I've been blessed with a mission in life, a forever on going road to live for, my Family. My life revolves around them, and they are the reason for my being. My biggest fear is leaving the world one day, leaving them without a rest in their hearts and true knowledge that I have always loved them ever so deeply. That I have always had the best respect in them and their decisions. That I have lived a life possible because of them. They are the root of all my success and ease. There would be nothing I wouldn't do for anyone of them. Especially my Parents. Even though I am so very blessed with these wonderful people, at times, I feel like I'm alone. Alone emotionally. My pessimistic side starts of over shadow my insides, and it off sets a mirror image of what's really happening. The reality that I refuse, with all my mind to even think of. A mere image of this alternate reality makes me debilitated. The fact that I could feel everyone that matters the most to me drift farther away from me makes me frustrated in the most terms, knowing not only that I did something to make this unravel, but as if it's too late for me to change fate. 

Whenever the moment comes, someone is either walking out of the conversation so they wouldn't be condescended, or someone has done something utterly important without my knowledge or inform. It's enough that I feel helpless, but why must I be left in the dark at most times? These people that I talk about, are my Family. Everything that I feel for more or think of more thoroughly has always been my Family. They are my life and at the hours, I feel like I'm just nugatory compared to my love for them. What must I do? Keep fighting for that? To never stop expressing my undying love for my Family? I shall, it won't be easy, but it won't be hard. All in all, it's just one of those things I cannot, and will not give up on: my forever radiating love for my Family.